Dirty Wedding Read Online Crystal Kaswell

Categories Genre: Alpha Male, BDSM, Billionaire, Erotic, Romance Tags Authors:
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Total pages in book: 91
Estimated words: 97574 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 488(@200wpm)___ 390(@250wpm)___ 325(@300wpm)
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I want you to marry me.

It's absurd. Beyond absurd.

Even if there's a certain logic. A Ty kind of logic. His heart is broken. His reputation is in shambles.

Why not marry someone he enjoys fucking? Even if he'll never love her.

I don my headphones. Will Amy Winehouse to erase Ty from my mind.

Her gorgeous, deep, throaty voice fills my ears. Then the jazzy instrumental track kicks in and I'm lost in a world of pain and self-destruction.

The pain of Ty leaving.

The self-destructive impulse to say yes to his proposal.

Or maybe it's my need to say no.

Which is more dangerous: My urge to invite him into my life, even though it killed me last time he walked away? Or my desire to run from a solution to my problems?

Money doesn't buy happiness.

But not having money really fucking sucks. And I know that as well as anyone does.

When the train arrives, I pause the music. The cool air steals my attention. Then it’s the noise of the city. Taxis, tourists, businessmen on meetings.

Afternoons in Manhattan are always busy. Especially in midtown.

With two hours until work, I don't have time to go back to Brooklyn for quiet. So I find respite in a coffee shop a few blocks from Rick's.

I order a black tea, find a seat by the window, will the steel and glass of the skyscraper across the street to sort my thoughts.

But my cheap dress shows in the window's reflection.

The shop is too loud.

The tea is oversteeped.

This is nothing compared to Ty's office. Nothing compared to his life.

He always wants the best. Of everything.

I was shocked when I qualified.

Three years ago, I was working at a different fancy cocktail bar. Wearing black boots and tight dresses as I fetched drinks for rich men.

He was a customer. A regular. He was staying nearby for the summer.

He already had all that power and presence and intensity.

Only there was a softness too. A softness he tried to hide.

For a while, that was it. He was friendly. He tipped well. I meant it when I smiled.

I didn't enjoy the job, exactly, but it paid well, and I had time to myself. Time for playing my guitar, writing songs, going to shows.

My life was good. Maybe nothing special, but mine.

Then I ran into him.

I was at The Museum of Sex with a friend. And he was there. Taking in what the States had to offer.

It was beyond embarrassing—this handsome, aloof guy catching me blushing at pornographic pictures. Pictures of bound wrists and ball gags.

But then he made a joke, and I laughed, and I felt at ease.

He offered to buy me a tea.

My friend insisted I go. He's so handsome. And British too. When are you going to meet another hot British guy?

I said yes.

We sat at a modern coffee shop, sipping our drinks, trading stories about life in New York City.

Then we had dinner. Went to his apartment. Talked all night.

And that was it. I was smitten.

Our first kiss was something out of a fairy tale.

Fireworks. Actual fireworks.

Then he asked me about the pictures. If they interested me. If they showed something I wanted.

I said yes and we got into specifics.

Did I want to be tied up, gagged, spanked?

Hurt?

Did I want to beg?

I didn't even realize I craved a rough touch until I met Ty.

He read me like a book. Knew exactly what I needed, when I needed it, how and when to push me.

I trusted him in a way I'd never trusted anyone.

With my heart—he understood how it felt to lose a father, to struggle to support his mother, to balance ambition and duty.

With my body—he knew I came when he put his hand around my throat, knew I wanted to be tied to his bed, knew I craved control.

He was only staying for the summer. And I was, am, nine years his junior. There was no way our lives would ever intertwine.

So we agreed.

Three months together. Then he'd go back to London and I'd stay in New York and we'd part with our Casablanca moment.

We'll always have Manhattan.

I believed it. That it was better to love and lose. Not that I loved him.

Maybe I did. I don't know.

Love isn't something I want. It's pain. It's always been pain.

Losing my father.

Losing my mother to grief.

Then to the sickness that claimed her lungs and her life.

I'm not sure if I loved Ty, but I know it broke my heart when he left. Even though I expected it. Even though I wanted it.

And when he met Rory and broke his promise to stay in touch—

That killed me.

I don't know the details. Only that he fell in love with her. That he left me a message, two months later, before his first trip to New York.

I'm coming to the city, but I can't see you. I'm sorry, Indie. I'm seeing someone now. I don't trust myself around you.



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