Total pages in book: 75
Estimated words: 69836 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 349(@200wpm)___ 279(@250wpm)___ 233(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 69836 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 349(@200wpm)___ 279(@250wpm)___ 233(@300wpm)
“I’m Cesar, and I know how to deal with minor injuries.”
My fingers have been broken or otherwise injured more times than I can remember. One needs to know how to keep themselves mobile in my profession, whatever the situation. Still, maybe I’m not as professional about this as I want to be, because a part of me itches to push my nose under the folded denim and inhale his essence straight from the warmed skin.
Eli leans forward. “How? You’re not telling me the full story. There’s a reason you’re helping me. Though… I guess I’d like to know what’s wrong with my ankle first. Can you tell?”
My tongue dries, and I lean forward, eager to tell him everything. How I was at the gala because I wanted to put pressure on Sullivan over a broken promise, but that Eli freed me from the bastard instead.
He freed me.
Of course I’d make sure he’s safe, healthy, and never suffers any adverse consequences of his actions. But now isn’t the time for difficult truths. He’d be scared of the real me, so I shrug, assessing the damage to the mildly swollen joint.
“I’m ex-Special Ops.” The lie rolls easily off my tongue, and before Eli can ask me a question, I adjust his joint with a decisive twist of my hands. My patient stifles a cry, but he will only get better from now on. “And this? Just a sprain. We should ice it with some snow.”
He takes deep, raspy breaths because of the pain I’ve caused, but in my mind they transform into the sounds he’d make under me—No. That is not my objective. I wasn’t supposed to talk to him, let alone get involved. It’s not even Friday. And he suggested he’s not gay, so I need to leave my feral instincts behind.
“Thank you,” Eli finally utters and opens his jacket. “Just so you know, I’m not… I don’t just go around killing people. I wasn’t even sure I’d pull the trigger until I did.”
“Neither do I,” I say without thinking, then stall when I see his eyes widen.
Fuck.
Why am I so flustered around this guy? I’m usually so confident. Maybe it’s because I’m still adrift after Sullivan’s death? I hated him, but he was still a compass to guide my life. Without him, every direction is fair game.
Or is Eli my new North Star?
Everything inside me shakes in protest, because I ought to want freedom and independence. But after a lifetime of service, do I even know how to live without someone as the center of my universe?
“I’ve knocked them all out,” I add, massaging his ankle. Maybe I don’t need to, but I want to.
“Oh. Oh, that’s good. They weren’t evil bastards like Sullivan. I can’t blame them for trying to arrest me. They don’t know the full picture.” Eli looks into my eyes, and I notice he has some freckles on his cheeks. I love freckles. “I didn’t think I’d meet someone who hated him as well.”
“Why?” I ask, shifting closer to pull my knuckles over the underside of his foot, attempting to loosen his stiff muscles. “The man was a scumbag.”
Eli laughs. “That tickles! But yeah, he was a scumbag. He bulldozed through people and no one dared stand up to him. Those who did probably ended up in body bags. I half expected to be in one last night. I counted my chances as fifty-fifty.”
Yet he still came to face him.
How sad.
But also brave. Admirable.
I take a deep breath, pushing my fingers up Eli’s calf, and while I started this as a way to promote healing, I can’t lie to myself and claim my intentions remain innocent. With the way he’s dressed, I can’t see whether he also has freckles on his neck, but I hope he does.
“What did he do to you?”
Eli goes quiet for a while, vulnerability painted all over his face, and I can almost see the pain Sullivan caused him. I need to know everything about it.
“I never told anyone. I couldn’t. Sullivan threatened me and my dad, so we kept the secret. It’s strange to be free to tell you about it. But I want to. Ready for a sob story?”
He’s trying to minimize whatever happened by joking, but I see him. A man pushed to his limits by fury and suffering. And I’m more than ready to shoulder the burden.
“Tell me,” I whisper and sit back on my haunches.
The scent of pine somehow feels more real now. As if we’re in a cabin in the woods, far away from any pursuit, and from other people. I like having him to myself.
Eli clears his throat, and I can almost smell his uncertainty, but he starts talking.
“My family used to own a Christmas tree farm. Five years ago, as I went out with my dad to survey a part of the land, we stumbled upon people trespassing. But when we got closer to confront them, we realized they were burying bodies on our land. That, of course, was Sullivan and several of his men. Once they saw us and knew what we witnessed, all hell broke loose. I thought we’d die. They beat us up but didn’t kill us. I don’t know if our begging was enough, or if Sullivan’s later intentions for our farm were the reason, but we swore to remain silent about what we saw if they only let us go.