Total pages in book: 22
Estimated words: 21056 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 105(@200wpm)___ 84(@250wpm)___ 70(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 21056 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 105(@200wpm)___ 84(@250wpm)___ 70(@300wpm)
He took one last, long lick over my pussy and gave a soft kiss on my clit. “So fucking hot,” he murmured. “Talking on the phone while I tongue-fuck you. Listening to me like my good girl.”
I laughed weakly, breathless.
The so wrong it’s right edge, and the risk of being caught only made it hotter. I was fucked up for loving it, that was for sure.
But I wouldn’t change a thing.
Chapter Twelve
Lila
The decision to go public with our relationship didn’t come in a single, dramatic moment. It crept over us softly, when both of us were ready and comfortable.
We were tired of hiding. Tired of the constant calculation, the paranoia, and the way every glance from a neighbor felt like an accusation.
It started with a conversation on the couch one Sunday evening. The house was nearly all packed with only things we absolutely needed left out. Marcus had already found a place, a little three-bedroom cottage style home on five acres. I’d gone to take a look at it. A fixer-upper, that’s for sure, but it was beautiful.
We’d been curled together under a blanket, some old crime show re-run flickering on the TV we weren’t really watching.
“I’m ready for forever, baby. For our happily ever after. I’m ready for us to live together. For us to always be together.”
I tilted my head to look at him. “I want that, too.”
He exhaled. “So we go slow. We tell people we trust.”
I nodded. “Mom. She’s the only one I’d tell right now. She’s the only one who deserves to know.”
He pressed a kiss to my temple. “You’re right, sweetheart. We start there. I’ll handle the house. You worry about work.”
The next afternoon, I asked Mom to meet me for coffee at the little place downtown. It was the one with the mismatched mugs and too-loud espresso machine. She arrived in yoga pants and a hoodie, hair in a messy bun, and hugged me as if we hadn’t just seen each other.
She was so beautiful, and I couldn’t deny that happiness looked good on her. It didn’t excuse any of the shit that had happened or what she did to Marcus, but she was my mom and always would be.
“Okay, honey,” she said as soon as we sat down, voice soft but searching. “You look like you’re carrying something heavy. What is it?”
I tried to smile, but it felt fragile. I thought about prolonging, changing my mind and the subject, but in the end, I just spit it out. “It’s… about Marcus.”
Her brows drew together, immediate concern deepening. She waited, patient, the way she always did when I was little and had something hard to say.
I took a deep breath. “I’m with him.” I cleared my throat, looking down, fidgeting with my napkin. “Together.” I let that word hang between us in a long, awkward pause. “Romantically.” I finally looked up at my mom.
Silence stretched long and heavy but most of all painful. Her face paled, eyes widening slowly as the words sank in. She set her coffee down with trembling hands.
“Lila…” Her voice cracked, and she grabbed her napkin with shaky fingers. “How long?”
I shifted on my seat and looked down at the scuffed table. “It started when I came back to help him pack up the house. We fought it. Tried to stop it. But in the end, we couldn’t. We didn’t want to.”
She closed her eyes for a moment, breathing shallow. When she opened them, they were wet. “He was married to me. He was supposed to be… a father figure to you.”
“He was never that to me, Mom. Never a father figure in any capacity. You know that.” My throat burned, and she nodded, agreeing with me. “I know how wrong it looks. How it must feel to you.”
She reached across the table and took both my hands in hers. Her hold was tight, as if she were anchoring herself. “Are you safe? Does he treat you with respect?” She exhaled shakily. “Does he ever make you feel pressured?”
“No,” I said quickly. “God, no. Never. He’s gentle with me. Patient. He listens and makes me feel… safe, seen. Loved.”
She searched my face for a long time. “You’re twenty-three. He’s… he’s old enough to be your father. The power imbalance. The history. People will talk.” She let go of my hand and scrubbed her face. She looked so tired then. “They’ll judge. They’ll say terrible things. Are you ready for that?”
“I’m scared of it,” I admitted. “But I’m more scared of losing him. Of pretending I don’t feel what’s between us.”
Tears slipped down her cheeks. “I feel like I failed you somehow. Like I should have seen this coming. Protected you better.”
“There was nothing to protect. Nothing happened until I came back home after graduating college.. I never ever thought of Marcus in that way. This wasn’t planned, and you did nothing wrong. It just… happened,” I whispered. “This isn’t because of you. It’s because of us. Because of who we are together.”