Total pages in book: 149
Estimated words: 151384 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 757(@200wpm)___ 606(@250wpm)___ 505(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 151384 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 757(@200wpm)___ 606(@250wpm)___ 505(@300wpm)
“You don’t have a temper issue,” Tobias told him. “Therapy?”
Jenner nodded. Then he sighed. “Yeah, I decided I needed to try therapy again. My father was an abusive prick and he messed things up in my head that I’m trying to unravel. Most of that stuff has to do with Immy.”
“It does?”
Jenner turned to him. “I love her. I’m in love with her. I know you know this since we had a conversation where I said I couldn’t fight for her. But—”
“You changed your mind.”
“Yeah, and it seems it was a case of too little too late. Not saying that to make you feel sorry for me. Just trying to explain why I exploded in there. You’re getting everything I wanted. Just want to make sure you deserve her. But, clearly, you’re a better man than me.”
“Even though I’m a criminal and Alejandro owns me?” Tobias asked.
Jenner winced.
Yeah. Jenner was definitely a better man than him. It was clear that he felt bad for what he’d said to Tobias.
Tobias had just cared about his relationship with Immy and how he’d messed that up.
“I shouldn’t have said those things.”
“They’re fucking true, though. I don’t deserve Immy.”
Jenner let out a puff of laughter that had no humor in it. “No one does. Immy is the very best person I know and neither of us deserve her. Yet, here we are, both wanting her.”
“I’m not stepping aside. I get that she’s loved you forever, but that doesn’t mean I’m giving up on her. I want Immy. I love Immy.”
“You love her?” Jenner grew pale.
“Yes, I do.”
Jenner straightened his shoulders. “And you expect I’ll just step aside? When I love her too?”
“You were willing to not that long ago. You weren’t going to fight for her.”
“That changed.”
“Yeah. Why? And why wouldn’t it change again?”
“It changed when she kissed me.”
He stiffened. Fuck.
“So one kiss and you want her?”
“One kiss and I ran. And then I couldn’t look at her because I felt like the biggest asshole in the world. I thought I was going to ruin her, to hurt her. So I’ve been going to therapy and unraveling my feelings for Immy. I’ve been separating my feelings from the threads of abuse at the hands of my father. I love her. I might not deserve her. And maybe I should step aside. But I know she loves me as well.”
They both stared at each other.
Fuck. Fuck!
He could probably plant seeds of doubt in this man’s mind about Immy’s love. He could keep her for himself. But then what? He went back to New York with Immy?
Was that what she’d want? Would she want to be without her friends here? Without Jenner?
“I’m a bastard. I’m selfish and I always get what I want.”
Jenner blinked at him.
“I want Immy. And I’d do whatever I had to in order to get her.”
Jenner’s face tightened.
“But there’s something else I’ve learned about myself. When you love someone, you fucking put them first.” He didn’t like it, but it was the truth. “Also, I’ve learned that Immy has so much love inside her, it’s ridiculous. She certainly has enough love for two men.”
“What . . . what the hell are you saying?” Jenner asked.
“I’m saying that we share her. That we don’t force her to choose, but we give her what she wants. Both of us.”
Jenner let the shock of those words hit him.
Share her?
They couldn’t do that, right?
“How would we split up her time? What would that look like?” Jenner asked.
“I don’t know the ins and outs of it, man. Just know that she wants us both.”
Jenner thought about it . . . about what sharing her might look like. At the Camp, some of the men had multiple wives, including the Deity.
God, he hadn’t thought of those poor women in a while.
They’d looked so lifeless. So beaten down. He didn’t know what the fuck that bastard had done to them, he just hoped they’d gone on to a better life.
He knew that wasn’t a good representation of a relationship like that. What would it even be called? Polyamorous? Menage?
He let himself think about what it would be like if he was in a relationship with Immy . . . and with Tobias.
Maybe he’d get jealous sometimes. But there were also times when it could be a good thing.
Tobias could keep her safe, especially at concerts, when they were touring.
And Tobias wouldn’t let Jenner hurt her. Not that he was going to, he’d learned that through therapy. However, there was still a seed of doubt and he thought there might always be.
Tobias had been in a relationship with a Little before. Jenner had been taking classes so he didn’t mess anything up, but having Tobias there for those things would be a relief.
So what do you bring to the party?
Well. He knew Immy probably better than anyone. He actually thought he knew what had happened just before, even though it had taken him a moment to work it out.