Total pages in book: 91
Estimated words: 89324 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 447(@200wpm)___ 357(@250wpm)___ 298(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 89324 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 447(@200wpm)___ 357(@250wpm)___ 298(@300wpm)
The mood had turned more serious than I was ready for, especially considering the incredible time we’d just had. Then she solidified the change in vibe.
Blair cleared her throat. “I’m just gonna ask this once, okay? I’m not gonna make it a thing. And I’m not gonna pressure you.”
I swallowed. “Okay…”
“Do you think there’s a chance you and I could ever work out?” Her voice shook. “You know, if we did keep in touch?” Her face turned red, a true reflection of her feelings for me. The stakes were high, because no matter how I answered, I was bound to hurt her.
I looked away for a moment as dread filled me. Even though her question had thrown me for a loop, it shouldn’t have surprised me. I desperately wanted that fantasy, too, but I knew with every fiber of my being that I wasn’t good for her in the long term. The more time Blair and I spent together, the sooner she’d figure that out. She hadn’t even started her life yet. I’d already ruined the lives of several people, from my son’s mother, to my son, to the men whose deaths I’d been responsible for when I was deployed. No way in hell was I going to ruin Blair’s life, too. That left me with no choice but to hold strong.
I finally found the words. “I would love the opportunity to explore this beyond the resort, to keep in touch and not to lose you.” My stomach knotted as I hesitated. “But I don’t think that would benefit you, Blair—for so many reasons. Once we start down that path, it will be too late to turn back. So I think it’s better for you if we end things when our trip is over.”
She nodded as if she’d been expecting that answer. “You think it’s better for me… But what about you?”
“I told you, I don’t deserve you.”
“But you’d want to be with me, if it weren’t for worrying about how it would affect my life?”
Fuck yes. There was no debating that. But I had to think carefully about how to respond. I couldn’t lead her on. She’d try to convince me she’d be okay with seeing where this went. It was too big of a risk, and I didn’t trust that I couldn’t be swayed with the way I felt right now.
“The answer is complicated,” I said. “But whether I would want to be with you is irrelevant, okay? It doesn’t change anything.”
“All right.” She sighed deeply, sadness on her face. “I’m not gonna push. I’m gonna choose to enjoy the remaining time we have.”
I brushed the back of my hand along her cheek. “I already feel myself getting way too addicted to you. And addictions generally need to be broken before they consume us.”
She moved in closer and whispered over my lips, “Well, then, if we’re on borrowed time, we’d better stop wasting it talking.”
My dick grew fully erect within seconds. I had the libido of a teenager suddenly. And I recognized the irony.
Blair raked her fingers through my hair. “I can’t get enough of you, Tate.”
“How do you want me this time?”
She blushed. “I want you to take me from behind.”
Shit.
She somehow knew that’s what I wanted to try. That position had always been my weakness. But with her? Her beautiful ass for the taking? I wasn’t sure my damn heart could handle it.
I kissed her hard before flipping her over. Blair promptly got on her hands and knees, sticking her gorgeous ass up in the air.
Fuck.
I couldn’t help rubbing my shaft along the slit of her ass for a few seconds of skin-to-skin contact. But before I could give in to the reckless urge to sink inside her bare, I hurried over to grab another condom. I couldn’t slide it over my dick fast enough.
I jerked myself a few times as she swayed her gorgeous ass from side to side, a silent invitation. While I hadn’t given in to the urge to slip inside her raw, I would indulge another desire. I lowered my face and devoured her from behind. Blair gasped as my wet mouth found her flesh. She moaned as I alternated between tonguing her ass and her pussy, my cock dripping with excitement.
Once I’d had my fill, I took a moment to appreciate her ass before I entered her. “You’re so ready for me, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” she mewled.
I dug my fingertips into her ass cheeks. “Such a good girl.” Fuck. Now I was playing into the age dynamics? I was losing my damn mind.
“Fuck me, Tate. I can’t wait any longer.”
Without further ado, I sank inside of her, the tight pull of her opening nearly too much to take. I shut my eyes to compose myself before beginning to move in and out of her. “Your ass…is exquisite,” I panted as I thrust.