Total pages in book: 75
Estimated words: 73002 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 365(@200wpm)___ 292(@250wpm)___ 243(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 73002 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 365(@200wpm)___ 292(@250wpm)___ 243(@300wpm)
“Hey, honey! So glad you called!”
“Mom, it’s almost midnight. I thought you’d be asleep.”
“No, hun! I’m planning! I got the event center booked for July, and then I got the courtyard for the reception.”
Squeezing his eyes shut, he pinched the bridge of his nose. “Oh, I thought they were booked.”
“Oh, I made some calls,” she laughed, and he could just see her wiggling in her seat. “I made sure to give my baby boy everything he wants. Since I know your sister will never give me a wedding.”
He laughed. “You never know. She could find someone that she can’t ignore.”
He could hear his mother rolling her eyes. “That girl will never get married, nor will she give me grandbabies. So I’ll need you two to adopt one day.”
Wells swallowed hard. The problem was he couldn’t see himself having children with Alex. All he saw was Matty. “In due time.”
“Yeah, in due time,” she agreed, sighing. “I think I might head to bed. I’ve been up all day with my wedding books. I ordered them off Amazon and next day-ed them, so I’ve been busy.”
He smiled; she was so excited. “I told you to hire someone. I can pay for it.”
“Never. You’re basically the bride, so it’s my job, and I love it!”
“Okay,” he said softly, his heart in his throat. He was already in his thirties, so he guessed it should make sense that his mom would be excited for this. Especially since Wren was never ever getting married. That girl was her own person and would never find herself depending on someone else. That was just the way she was, and he loved her for it. As much as he wanted to talk to his mom about his reluctant feelings, he didn’t want to disappoint her. He was already the reigning disappointment to his father; he couldn’t do that to his mom. He couldn’t. “I guess I’ll let you go.”
“Oh no, wait. Why’d you call? Are you okay?”
He inhaled deeply. “I’m fine. Just wanted to tell you I loved you,” he lied, shaking his head.
“Aw, my sweet boy. I love you too, honey.”
That made him smile slightly, but then he found himself asking, “You like Alex, right?”
His mother paused. “Of course, but it doesn’t matter what Dad and I think. It’s about you, honey. Do you love him?”
Did he?
“Who’s calling so late?” Wells heard his father ask.
“Wells.”
“Oh, is he still getting married to a man?”
Wells shook his head. His father’s issues with his sexuality were always a touchy topic, but when he’d found out Wells was getting married, it was easy to say his father wasn’t very happy. The total opposite of his mother, actually. “I’ll let you go, Mom. I love you.”
“I love you, honey,” she said just as he hung up. Slowly, he leaned his hips into the rail as his arms hung over it. He was cold, but he wasn’t ready to go in yet. There’d be no point. He couldn’t put the TV on; Alex would wake up, and he couldn’t stand to be woken up. When Wells slept with Matty, or when Matty slept here, he was able to watch TV since Matty slept like a rock. But then, usually, Matty was up anyway, unable to slee0,p just like Wells. Their minds moved a million miles a second. They’d talk, touch, and enjoy each other. It was easy, and Wells missed him. So much.
But it didn’t matter.
He was with Alex.
He loved Alex.
Even if it was as easy as breathing when he was with Matty, it was also hard. They couldn’t go out together and be together. They’d go to dinner, and he wouldn’t even be able to touch Matty. What if someone saw? What if someone went back and told Matty’s dad he was making out with a guy at dinner? It just couldn’t happen. Matty wouldn’t meet his parents. He’d met Vaughn and Jensen, but that was because they were in Wells’s apartment, and it was only after Wells had promised over and over again they wouldn’t say anything. Even then, Matty wouldn’t touch Wells. He always held in the PDA, and it drove Wells crazy because all he wanted to do was touch and love on the man who completed him.
Alex, though…he was all over Wells. Alex wanted him all the time. They went to dinner, drinks, everywhere, together, as a couple. Wells had met Alex’s family, and they loved him. He adored them. He knew his best friends loved Matty, while they weren’t sold on Alex, but that would change. He just knew it.
While things were right on the surface, on the inside, Wells was conflicted. He had the true couple-like relationship—everything he wanted—but he didn’t have it with the person he truly wanted. He knew it, he did, but while Alex wasn’t who he’d wanted—Alex was who wanted him—and Wells was tired of trying to find a good person who would love him the way he deserved. He did care for Alex, maybe even loved the guy. So while it wasn’t Matty, and yeah, it hurt to know that it never would be, Wells knew what he had to do.