Sunset Savage – Ice King Read Online B.B. Hamel

Categories Genre: Alpha Male, Dark Tags Authors:
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Total pages in book: 75
Estimated words: 72945 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 365(@200wpm)___ 292(@250wpm)___ 243(@300wpm)
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You never take the first offer.

There has to be something more happening here, but I can’t get through to Baptist right now.

He’s raging. It’s like an entirely different person took him over and now I’m watching him spiral deeper and deeper into a cave and he can’t hear me anymore.

All that darkness, all that anger, the molten hate and raw emotions bubbling around inside of him are spilling out all over and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Cowan broke something in him, and I’m terrified Baptist is about to murder the old director.

Not that I’d blame him. I’m not even sure I want to stop him, except to make sure Baptist doesn’t end up in jail for the rest of his life.

After what he told me about his relationship with his father and the end of his father’s life, I can’t imagine the level of callousness it takes to pull off what Cowan just did. There must be something broken inside of the old director, something irredeemable and shattered, because Baptist is suffering now and I hate it. It physically kills me, knowing how much Baptist is hurting, and I know there’s nothing I can do to help him.

None of this makes any sense, and I don’t know what to do.

Except I follow him. That’s all I can think of. Baptist storms past the front desk, looks around the cafe area, before finally taking the stairs. I jog after him, trying to get him to calm down and think for a second, but he’s ignoring me now.

The red-hot rage is gone, replaced by something worse.

Determination.

He’s doing this and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

“Don’t throw away your life for Cowan,” I plead as we go up the stairs. I’m basically running, and sweat’s rolling down my back. Why couldn’t we have put Rodrick on a lower floor? “Seriously, Baptist. Whatever he did, we can hurt him in other ways. We can release this story and make sure nobody works with him ever again. We can bury him.”

Baptist doesn’t answer. He goes step by step, heading up and up, staring straight ahead.

“I don’t want you to end up in jail just because of Cowan. Please, Baptist. You’re not going to change anything by hurting the asshole. You’re just playing into his game.”

We reach Rodrick’s floor. Baptist stops before he pushes open the door and turns to me. I stand in front of him on the landing, breathing hard, flushed and out of breath, and it reminds me of that first night, that kiss on the stairway as we headed down to the supply closet. I stand back from him, my pulse raging, part of me wanting him to kiss me like he did back then and another part hoping he’ll see reason and stop all this.

“Why don’t you want me to end up in jail?” he asks softly.

His question hits me like a punch between my eyes. I shake my head slowly. “I don’t know what you mean. You’re my friend. You’re my business partner.”

“Liar.” He turns away. “You can’t even fucking say it.”

“Baptist.”

He shoves open the door and waits.

I open my mouth—

And I want to tell him the truth.

You’re the father of my baby. I’m starting to care for you in a way I never dreamed I could. I’m falling, and I don’t know how to stop it, so please, please, don’t walk away from me.

But nothing comes out.

Finally, in the most important moment of my life, in the peak of all this insanity, I finally see the truth about myself.

I’m a coward.

I’m a pathetic, worthless coward.

Baptist walks into the hall and I realize I have the power to stop this the whole time, but I can’t bring myself to say the words.

To tell him the truth.

Because that would mean admitting it to myself, and how can I do that, when I’m so convinced that I’m not worth it?

I hurry after him, tears in my eyes. I can speak up at any moment and tell him what I’m feeling but once I start, I know he’ll hear everything, the full, ugly truth, and he’ll hate me, but at least it’ll stop this.

He won’t hate me for falling for him—but for lying to him about the baby. For keeping it from him as we’ve gotten closer and closer over the last few weeks.

Because I know the truth. I know what he wants me to admit.

We’re falling for each other and it’s sickeningly beautiful, because it’s something I don’t think we can ever have.

He’ll hate me when he finds out the truth.

But what’s worse? Letting him do this, or letting him despise me?

He reaches Rodrick’s door and bangs on it hard. He pounds and pounds until it finally yanks open, revealing Cowan, looking annoyed. “We were just in the middle of a fucking rehearsal,” he says, storming back inside.



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