Total pages in book: 61
Estimated words: 58003 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 290(@200wpm)___ 232(@250wpm)___ 193(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 58003 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 290(@200wpm)___ 232(@250wpm)___ 193(@300wpm)
Hell yes
Yeah, do it man.
Str8 guy jerking for the cam = my kryptonite
U cd split the tips with him.
OMG YES.
Please!!!
Jude gave a rueful chuckle. “Dudes, seriously. If I thought for a minute that he would, I’d ask him tomorrow. But no way.”
Why not?
Doesn’t hurt to ask.
Shawn found himself wondering the same thing. Why did Jude immediately assume he wouldn’t? Did he think he was too straight? Too vanilla? Too chicken? He bristled at the implications.
“Yeah, no. He’d think I was hitting on him and would run a mile. Plus, not everyone wants their junk on camera for the world to see, you know. Only exhibitionists like me. Speaking of which… it’s getting late, guys, so it’s time for me to give you what you’re waiting for.”
Even though Shawn had already come twice, he was hard again watching Jude finish. Damn, he looked good. There was no other way to describe it. It wasn’t so much that Shawn was turned on by watching a guy jerking off rather than watching straight porn or girl-on-girl, it was just that it was so fucking sexy the way Jude got lost in the act. Near the end it was like nobody was watching him at all. Jude closed his eyes, spread his legs, and squeezed his balls, and his whole body jerked as he came with a desperate-sounding moan that made Shawn’s toes curl in empathy.
Jude looked tired afterwards, even yawned as he was saying his goodbyes to his viewers.
“Goodnight, guys, till next time.” He blew a kiss at the camera and was gone.
Once the illicit thrill of watching Jude was over, Shawn felt flat and lonely. Jerking off to porn was one thing, but jerking off over one of your housemates—one of your friends, because he felt like he could count Jude as a mate now—was quite another. It made Shawn only too aware of what he didn’t have at the end of it. Someone to kiss and talk to afterwards; a warm body in his bed to snuggle up to.
After cleaning up and brushing his teeth, Shawn got under the covers. His thoughts turned to Jude again. He wondered how Jude felt after doing one of his shows, whether he felt lonely too. His mind wandered back to the conversation Jude had had with his fans about asking Shawn to join in with one of his shows.
Was it crazy that he felt almost disappointed that Jude wasn’t planning on asking him?
This weird crush on Jude was certainly broadening Shawn’s horizons.
On Monday after work, Shawn had holed up in his room and took an interesting detour from his usual porn. He searched for gay porn on Tumblr and got lost down a rabbit hole of images, gifs, and video clips. Through his experimental porn-diving he soon found that Jude wasn’t the only guy he could get off on watching.
Shawn couldn’t decide whether this was a relief or a problem. He wondered how he’d managed to keep this a secret from himself for so long. It was amazing what an effective barrier denial could be. But Jude seemed to have brought those mental blocks crashing down like dominoes.
Lying in bed after jerking off to a video of two guys blowing each other, Shawn considered his options.
A hook-up app seemed the obvious choice if he wanted to take his bi-experimentation to the next level. But he knew for a fact that Jez and Mac still dipped into Grindr occasionally, not to hook up, but to flirt with other guys for fun—usually together. Plus with all the other gay or bi guys Shawn knew: Josh, Rupert, Dev, Ewan, there was way too much chance of someone seeing his profile. Shawn wasn’t ready to out himself yet.
He cast his mind back to Jude’s show and the comments guys had been making in chat. At first more of a fantasy, a half-formed plan began to take shape. But as the details crystallised, Shawn found himself thinking of it as a legitimate possibility.
Could I?
Of course he could, but the real question was whether he’d have the balls to go through with it.
Shawn left it a couple more days and then watched Jude’s Wednesday cam show, and that made up his mind. He had nothing to lose, and Jude could only say no.
So the next evening, he went up to Jude’s room and knocked on the door, his heart hammering against his ribs like a battering ram.
“Come in!” Jude called.
“Hey,” Shawn said as he entered.
“Oh, hey. You’ve finally got the hang of that knocking-and-waiting thing, then.” Jude grinned, looking up from where he was sitting on his bed with his laptop. He closed the laptop as Shawn came closer.
“Ha-ha.”
“Have a seat.” Jude gestured to his chair… the chair he sat in while he was doing his shows. Shawn sat, trying not to picture Jude naked there with his dick out—that wouldn’t help him focus on what he needed to say. “What’s up, man?”